Panic

Wrote this a couple of days ago...

They call it a pang of guilt,
While Sta here, sees it as an aching kind of self reflection.
Not that it is different or wrong.
Its just that right now, Sta feels burdened with her own feelings.

Nerves are depressing sometimes.
It simply feels like Sta has gone completely wild. Well... internally.

Does anyone has supervision eyes to see this? Even without showing actions that depict fear, or anxiety? Guess there are no "psychics" around.

One moment can completely destroy the whole day.

It hurts, it really do. Funny thing is: people hurt because of BGRs, real family issues etc etc. BUT, that is not the case for Sta.

She is going to war with her inner self. Crazy as it sounds, aren't people all fighting inside each day? That little voices  within.

The "cycle" of thoughts is that Sta finally stopped thinking and recovered. But suddenly... They all came back to her. The dreaded moment.

Body tensed up, numbness and blockage of happy parts inside the brain.

She's still picking herself up...
Alongside the already broken pieces.
She's completely happy, and that is totally a lie.