No one is perfect, never will be.

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{ Prologue }

I decided to make something more straightforward. More of placing myself into someone else's shoes for deeper knowledge. These are pretty exaggerated, but y'all will roughly know what I'm trying to pinpoint.
This could be dedicated to some of you, if the shoe fits.


"See the girl who's always smiling? She seems happy, isn't she?"

Well, she has been through so much. Living in darkness for quite some time now. Depressed, hidden scars underneath from self-harming. Hurt more than twice, trust issues... lack of self-love. Suicidal thoughts. She wants to express things out, but does not want to come across as weak, or pathetic. She messes things up easily, even when speaking out verbally to someone. She needs help. But no one knows.


"See that boy who seems well-rounded? He plays sports well, good academic results and friendly. What more is there for him to be worried or unsatisfied with?" 

He came from a pretty messy background. Complicated family issues. Divorced parents, only child in the family. Feels the need to do well in whatever he has. Pressurizing himself to be the best, to keep working (or is he addicted to work). Whatever achievement he has now, it's always a "not enough" for him. Keep doing keep doing and keep doing. That's what he reminded himself.


"That guy that came from a wealthy family? He has not been himself lately, why is that so? People wonder..."

As funny as it seems, what he yearns for is true freedom. His dad demands him to study, get a good degree and work for him. Though he might not be interested in whatever business his father is in, he has no choice. After all...he has to keep up to standards and maintain dad's high position in the workplace.


"There is another dude, also from a rich family background. In his case, it is a different scenario. He gets everything he wants or asked for, his parents pretty much let him off with everything. Real busy parents. 

He needs attention, and love. He will take things to the extreme to try to get all these. Anyways, what is there to lose without love and all?


"The girl that doesn't give a care anymore? That just wants to get locked up at home and not get involved with anything and anyone. Why?"

She has had enough with the world, literally. She sees the world as a weakness. Sees things in darkness more than having that tinge of light to it. Her friends make fun of her in school. Called her names like "whore", "fat", "loser" and "ugly". Teachers simply overlook that matter. Cries herself to sleep each night.


"Another girl that keeps wearing long shirt and pants and whatever that is good to cover? Even a turtle neck when its hot in summer... what's up with her?"

She got severely abused/raped at home by a kin person. Beaten up for nothing. Scars. Her friends also bully her in school by pushing her around, pulling her hair and all, find her weird and "amusing". Not what she wants and deserves at all.


"Damn! The "flawless" model on the headline and cover for this season...on magazines... she is so pretty right?"

Don't get deceived. Modifying her a bit is one thing. She has to lift up the standard of keeping track of a certain amount of weight, get that curves or edges out. Live up to expectations again and again in this very competitive society. Compete with other models somehow. Cannot lose, or bring a shame for the agency/company. Needs that attention once and for all to keep business going.


"That lady over there whom is very successful? She seem to be troubled with something currently..."

Home issues. Have a sick father to look after, not the best of health. Hospitalized for quite some time now. Stage 2 .... Its not just about the medical bills and expenses... but also partly because of worry and mixed feelings. Eg. "To make him carry out operation...or not..."


" Then there is this man whom is also really accomplished in his work, and handling children..."

He lost his wife.... took place a couple of months now. Still struggling...trying to move one. Trying to genuinely smile. Not easy at all. Now the burden is on him.


"The teenager there? She is afraid of crossing the roads. Afraid of losing someone again."

Why? She got traumatized when she witnessed her little brother getting hit by a lorry. Shouted beforehand but to no use. Drunk driver. Lost a life. Cannot get over the incident fully till now. Always looking at the brother's room, and rewinding back those days when they played together.

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And from here, I conclude that no one is perfect. Even I-F we were, our funny brains will try to defy perfection...if you get what I meant, you are pretty psychic huh. ;)

At times, we feel like nobody understands us, even our closest ones. EVERYONE has problems; encountered them or are experiencing them now. We stress ourselves, bend ourselves too much till we break. I empathize those nights when we locked ourselves up to cry unknowingly. "I hate my life! I wish I wasn't born. I am not good enough" Yes, it happens. It happens and its human nature to seldom breakdown, live in pain and agony for some period of time.

If I could agree on something, I would love to quote out a sentence "Life is a sweet struggle". Yes, it seems like we all are fighting to live each day richly. But then again, we have to accept the fact that life can really drive us crazy sometimes. Are we living an experiment? Or is life just a process of enhancing our inner self -- called thought processing and emotions? Either way, there shall be a clarity in mind on to which direction we are going to take.

Wherever we are at, whenever time ticks... we gotta keep reminding ourselves to live on... recharge... go forward...

Embrace and enjoy the ride, lovely humans! I find y'all beautiful. Period.

Tons of well wishes,
Sta Fey M